For those of you who never feel like you belong….
As you fall into your 1,000th existential crisis, you realize that you have to make a choice.
You’ve just graduated high school/college/grad school, and you’ve put it off for as long as you could. But now you have to decide.
Are you going to buy in, or are you going sell out?
If you’re like me and you never quite feel like you fit in to any school or company or job, then the thought scares the hell out of you.
So let me break it down.
Buy in (verb): You convince yourself that the company/industry/job is a great opportunity. Even if its not perfect, its doable. You tell yourself everyday that you made the right choice until you believe it.
Sell out (verb): You accept that you’re never going to have the career you want so you might as well sell yourself to the highest bidder. You forget about ever finding something that fits and embrace the omnipresent consumption culture.
This weekend, at a conference, full of people that are supposed to be the best and brightest in the field I study, I was told I had to choose.
For someone that never identifies with an organization and always has one foot out the door, I froze.
The thought of living in a perpetual, proverbial pissing contest with all my peers makes me squirm.
How can I buy into a system that perpetuates and privileges everything that I hate?
How can I sell out when this is the one and only life that I will ever get to live?
But, sooner or later you have to choose.
- You are expected to shut your voice off and let yourself go.
- You are expected to get in line and follow the other sheep.
- You are expected to join the rat race.
- You are expected to crave money, status, power and validation over everything else.
- You are expected to buy in or sell out.
So which will it be?